The title here has been the gist of my life for the past year. It's still difficult to wrap my mind around the fact that my marriage is over. 14 years of building a life with someone, raising children together, planning your future with the one you thought you'd be with for the rest of your life... I don't have the words. There's so much uncertainty in my life now, along with panic attacks, anxiety, and hopelessness. I'd like to think I'm starting to get better, since spending more time outdoors has greatly improved my mood. My faith and my children have been an anchor in a sea of despair, and I know I still have a long road of healing ahead of me. Talking with friends and family sure helps but I'm considering getting profession help for my emotion/mental issues as well. Any suggestions or words of encouragement would be appreciated, especially from those who can relate. I hope everyone here is doing well and staying healthy with everything going on right now.